catch a rose

for you these roses might be just flowers, pretty flowers, but without a meaning to them. in my case that is different. usually when someone gets flowers, they keep them, because it’s a present from someone special. that’s in my case also different. i gave them to someone special, or to be honest, i threw them at someone special. a cute little guy called brendon urie. you might know him, if not, the only thing you need to know about him is, that he means the world to me and that he’s a singer/performer. i went to see him live and i brought these roses with me. i waited quite some time to be in the front row, but it was so worth it. when i threw the roses he saw it and picked them up, smelled them and then he smiled at me with the brightest smile someone could give you. and that makes me still so happy, because he saw me. i’m not in love with this man, but i feel a deep love for him. his music is something that can always make me smile and now it’s forever connected with the moment where he as a person made me, face to face, smile and i did the same to him. so these roses represent love, not in a romantic, but in a thankful and adoring way.
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i just came back from an awesome festival and i wanted to share some experience and maybe you can take something with you that will help you when you’re going to your next festival.


* don’t drive to far away, it might not be worth it.

sure, some festivals might be very appealing to you, but you should also look out for some that are around your area or your country. it’s not just less expensive, but if you meet people it’s also easier to see them again, when they live near your home. there are a lot of very small festivals all over the place, that you can easily find on the internet when you search for “your hometown” and “festival”.

* only bring what you really need

we all want to be prepared for any situation, but do you really need three rain jackets and more than two pair of shoes? you’ll have enough luggage with just the things you really need so don’t pack any more.

* alcohol?!

you might think that because nearly everyone is drinking on festivals it makes the experience better, but i don’t think so. you are there for the music and for the fun and you don’t get to enjoy the music drunk as good as you would sober and it’s not very fun to vomit at dirty festival toilets while your favourite band is playing.

* plan before you get there

what bands do you want to see? where are there playing and when? those are all questions you should be able to answer when you get to the festival. it sucks when you are not able to see an artist you wanted to see, because you fucked up to make a plan in the first place.


my top five festival items:

1. water / non alcoholic drinks

bring enough liquid to stay hydrated, you do not want to pass out.

2. practical clothes, especially shoes

you might not be the best looking festival visitor, but you are not going to be in pain or sick the next day. bring a rain jacket, solid shoes and clothes that are not to nice or expensive.

3. ticket

buy your ticket before you get there. it’ probably a bit more expensive, but you have it for sure. also don’t forget your ID.

4. hygiene products

please use deodorant, shower and brush your teeth. it’s not just good for you, but also for everyone around you.


you should definitely have fun and if you don’t bring friends, make some.

and now, you are ready. GOOD LUCK!



2016 records you should check out – spring

* the shadow side – andy black … dark and full of feels
* the colour in anything – james blake … the story of a beautiful, but quite sad life
* dark matter – the word alive … loud and like a hidden journal
* vacation ll – acid ghost … if red wine with friends was a album
* it’s the big joyous celebration, let’s stir the honeypot – teen suicide … don’t be sad darling, you can go trough that
* us – gnash … friends and a bit of love
* drink bleach – blackbear … no matter how high you are, you can relate
* white noise – pvris … supernatural love
* live and unplugged – sleeping with sirens … there’s a concert in your head
* misadventures – pierce the veil … scream the things you can’t say


things to do when you have  a day off and the weather is good enough to go outside:

– take pictures IMG_1233IMG_1248IMG_1241IMG_1256IMG_1275IMG_1288IMG_1300IMG_1315

– think about stuff, you usually don’t have the time to think about

– dance, scream, sing to your favourite songs

a little bit of inspiration:

* fall out boy

*the neighbourhood

*panic! at the disco

*twenty one pilots

*sleeping with sirens

*pierce the veil

*my chemical romance

*the 1975

*green day

*bring me the horizon


*andy black

– climb a tree (but don’t fall down, please)

– write something, a poem, a little story or scribble something

– speak to yourself